Doppelganger

A boy wakes up in a double bed. One arm stretched far and the other close to his bare chest. His small fingers touching the emptiness.

It feels rather lonely.

But not for long, he thinks to himself with a smile.

And with that thought propells himself out of bed, ready to repeat the daily routine.

A mouth full of pills chased with water.
An application of Gel.
Quick email check.
Finish dressing.
Then off to work.

Lunch swings round later than usual and this boy is still too busy to sit and eat. He takes it to go while lurking the busy streets, visiting shops, chatting up the assistants and admiring the finely dressed maniquins.

"See you later, Alex!" They say as he leaves the shop a newly bought shirt in hand.

Its back to work for a few more hours before heading home. Another day done.

Its somewhere during the ride home that something strange happens.
A transformation.
Where the young boy in the train seems to fade away and a young girl takes his place. Although the change is slow and usually unseen to the untrained eye the difference is obvious.


This second character is nervous, visibly confused and submissive. Her aura murky and face cast down.

This girl goes 'home' to 'her family' and has dinner with them. She meets the neighbours and family friends and replies vaguely about what she is doing in 'her life'.

Then again, at some undefinable point between walking down the hallway and shutting the door to a bedroom, this girl disappears again.

And there stands only Alex in his room.

People tell him often "You look so different to how I saw you before"

To which he replies "You didnt see me before. It was a doppelganger"


~*~*~

Yes, Ive noticed that Alex and this person whom my parents refer to as their "daughter" are now living seperate lives.

I...find it....important. As much as I dont like it. It keeps the peace.

My mother and brother both reject what Im doing. For different reasons.

I realised that its always been that my brother enjoys making me feel bad by picking on everything I do.

I think there is a lot of irony to the problem really. He blames my mother for his low self esteem and asks me to 'join his side' when infact it is he that has destroyed my self esteem and my mother who has preserved whats left of it.

Anyway,

Not having support from family or from someone you admire sucks. I dont really enjoy living this doppelganger life. I wish my mother and I could both have this journey together.

Im having a second childhood. I still want her there for it.

My brother can burn in hell though. If he dislikes me that much and wants me dead then thats all cool. Im not the least bit fazed about leaving his life. (ah, am I too cold perhaps?)

Any other news: My arms doesnt hurt as much! Also, I got a hair cut.
The End